always fantasized about a different life
but i wonder why because i'm just fine
so i wash it away, make the same mistakes
trick my brain again, i think that i'm okay
i can't believe it i think i'm living a lie
i'm so overwhelmed it makes me wanna die
i'll go out on top in a blaze of glory
with a gun in my hand and a bottle of whiskey
i won't live long enough to become the villain
i just want my friends to think i died happy
always think that i can go back to my old days
but i filled my free time with bullshit dreams
and trying to feel anything
waking up at 5 to make a living
i die inside every time i hear my alarm
i know that they check, so you can take the drugs
they're still a fucking part of me
lazy afternoons
don't really happen much but when they do
i'll lose all motivation
and i won't talk to anyone but you
tell me is there something
to break this shitty feeling of apathy
give me any answer
to make me feel like a normal human being