i need constant validation
from all of my friendships
or i'll feel like i'm fucking up
it makes me feel selfish, i fucking hate it
yeah i know anxiety sucks
but what am i to do, i got nothing left to prove
no ones getting in my way
i still feel roadblocks, they're getting heavier
this feeling in my chest won't go away
maybe i can take on the world, but i don't feel like it today
i tried to stop smoking, but switched to vaping
they say it's healthy
but i don't believe that shit
does it matter, its cheaper anyways
and nicotine still runs through my veins
but i still enjoy the fix, i don't know how to quit
anything that'll calm my brain
from getting too stressed out, that's what it's all about
i'm trying not to go insane
maybe i could quit when i want
but i don't feel like it today
i'm staying busy, it's overwhelming
i think i'm happy
cause there's no time to be depressed
i'm moving forward, maybe too fast
it makes me busy to the point of distress
but i don't know how to live, i think that this is it
anything to get through the day
and one day i'll slow down, and i'll have to think about
did i accomplish anything
maybe one day i could slow down, but i don't feel like it today
and maybe one day i'll be alright, but i don't think it's today