i'm too nice for my own sake, it's killing me to be this way
but that's just how i was raised, i don't think i could change
and it's my one good personality trait
and if i focus on me, everyone would run away
so let's see if i can change who i am
i know it's gonna be hard and i might lose all my friends
i don't think that i could put myself in front of anyone
cause i won't be happy if i focus on my problems
am i selfish already
i won't be able to tell unless you tell me
i hope its not pity that's keeping you here
started walking around baltimore at night
it's pretty peaceful when i hold my hand against the moonlight
then it got too intense like i've been known to do
i guess i'm scared of losing anything i get attached to
always worried i might lose my career
i'll lose my job i'll lose my house and everything i hold dear
and if it happened i'd move to philly
start a new life forget my friends forget my family
i'll just run and hide and get away from my problems
cause i don't think a therapist could ever solve them
i'll start anew
so let's see if i can get through the week
without falling into my destructive personality